By: Michele Geeting
The “now” me! I am a Daughter, Aunt, Wife, VPK Teacher, Friend, Step-Mom and Gigi. When I look back upon my life I see a lot of construction signs along the way. Meaning, I feel like my roads were constantly being worked on and there were a lot of detours along the way. Most of those detours were made because the construction going on in my life was so great. Sometimes those detours lead to more detours. I will name a few that totally changed my life. One of them was moving to a small town. At the time I did not want to move and my girls begged to move back to their home town. It was difficult for all of us trying to fit in at a new location. Shortly after, I went through a divorce. Divorce is such an ugly thing. No one wins! During the difficult times in life I would pray and cry out to God. Sometimes I felt as if I was all alone. But looking back I know that God was always there. Sometimes our answers do not come until later.
My present hurdle I see as minor. My husband, Chris recently took a job transfer and we have been living in a rental home. We are looking for a home to buy. I would love to fast forward to living in our new home already. I do not want to jump into the wrong direction. That can be so easy to do at times, so God is definitely teaching me patience and trust.
Another detour was a car accident that my husband Chris and I were in 4 years ago on April 4th. If you saw the pictures of what happened you would see how horrible it was. The man that hit us said that if he had added another bag of sand loaded on his truck that he would have crushed Chris and I. God was watching over all of us that day. I went through thoughts of why God spared us? What does he want us to fulfill here?
I’m at the point in my life that I just want to get to the destination I’m supposed to be at. I was thinking about what kind of legacy I want to leave behind. Well, I don’t want to leave one, I want to find one. If I really think about my past it’s not very pretty. The good that comes out of that is that I feel like I have learned a lot from it. I can decide on my future by simply letting go and letting God take over. To some this is just another feel good saying, “Let Go and Let God”. I can say in my loneliest and times of my deepest hurts I have called out to God. Sometimes I feel alone but I know He truly never leaves me. God can be your comfort, it’s just learning to be still in His presence. God loves us and does want the best for us. But we have to surrender to Him. Living for Christ is not a chore; it’s a heart that has new eyes. You see the world and people in a different way!
So I don’t want to leave a legacy I want to find out what it is. And live it out to help others. If you don’t know God and you have a desire to know Him, start by talking to Him while you are alone. God knows you better than anyone. He loves you more than you know.
My final thought! As I think of God’s love I think of my children and my granddaughter. I love them beyond words. When they hurt, I hurt. We never want our children to go through pain and when they do we try and fix it. How much more does God love us? He sees our hurts and hurdles. He sees all that we overcome. And cheers us on along the way. He never gives up on us! That’s one thing I know for sure! He never gives up.
I want to leave you with this bible verse that I hold close to my heart: “Commit to the Lord whatever you do, and He will establish your plans.” Proverbs 16:3